Netikėčiausioje vietoje netikėtai sutiktas Albert Camus: La città ideale / Idealusis miestas (2012)

Mano taktika yra gintis puolant. <…> Aš nuolat knaisiojuos po kitų gyvenimus. <…> Kiekviename mūsų yra srutų duobė. – Michele Grassadonios tėvo advokatas

Nors ImDb šis filmas įvertintas vos trijomis žvaigždutėmis, o dirstelėjusi Vikipedijon atradau, kad kritikų įvertintas jis buvo taip pat labai įvairiai, mano akį La città ideale (Idealusis miestas) pritraukė, įtraukė ir išplėtė vos tik pataikius jį įsijungti. Ir nesvarbu, kad pradžios nespėjau pamatyti. Ar dėl šios priežasties norėčiau pasižiūrėti filmą antrąkart? Greičiausiai, kad ne, tačiau lengvas sumišimas, kurį filmas sugebėjo palikti, yra labai svaigiai malonus.

Filmų sritis nėra ta sritis, kur aš dažnai ryžtuosi lįsti ir kažinką aprašliavoti – perdėm daug kino snobų esu sutikusi ir žinau, kaip jiems svarbu kiekviena detalė. Mano rašymas apie kiną, spėju, jų akimis prilgysta vandalizmui ant Vilniaus senamiesčio sienų (skirtumas, kad kino snobų maištingos snobiškos sielos pripažintų tai, kas vyksta ant sienų, kaip meną, bet aš jau būčiau vandalė, tačiau šįkart ne apie tai). Man detalumas niekada nebuvo svarbus, todėl kino sritis visad atrodė kaip pieva, pilna avių, kur nelabai dera grožėtis savo būsimomis kalakutienomis. Kita vertus, jaučiau Albert Camus, prisikeliantį kažkur atminties užkaboriuose, sulig kiekviena filmo sekunde. Žiūrėjau ir vis spėliojau, kas čia, po šimts pypkių, galėjo atsitikti, vyksta, kuom baigsis… Galbūt ta košė užvirė galvoje dėl to, kad nepamačiau pradžios? Nežinau. Tačiau manau, kad jei pradėsite žiūrėti nuo pradžių, vis tiek, matydami širdimi, apie šį bei tą susimąstysite. Dėl to rekomenduočiau pasižiūrėti šį filmą – o jeigu patiks. Dėl to šiek tiek ir papasakosiu, kodėl man kilo tokios mintys.

Trumpas siužeto aprašymas

Kai įsijungiau kanalą, kuris rodė šitą La Città Ideale, mačiau klasikinį skandinaviško detektyvo sceną – storas, senstelėjęs greičiausiai detektyvas ir tamsiaplaukis, tamsesnio gymio vyrukas, matyt, kad nusikaltėlis, o kur dar ir Faded efektu nufilmuotas vaizdas. Įprastai vengiu žiūrėti tokių filmų (dažnai vien iš to, kokiu efektu nufilmuota, sprendžiu, ar filmas bus man), nes jie mane per stipriai paveikia ir mano droviai bei jautriai natūrai šiaip nėra tinkami. Bet užsilikau, nes kažkas vis dėlto užkabino. Advokato veidas vis piktėjo, o nusikaltėlis vis labiau kėlė gailestį. Kažkas tame, ką jis pasakojo, atrodė nors nelogiška, bet teisinga – tarytum atpažinau save, kuri pasielgė alogiškai ir žmonėms iškart kyla įtarimas, kad aš susidirbusi neprisipažįstu. Galop toje scenoje Michele Grassadonia (tokie menamo nusikaltėlio vardas ir pavardė) nukeliauja aplankyti savo aukos – šiam komos būsenoje prisistato, pasako, kad žino, jog jis viską girdi, ir papasakoja, kad mažajam Michelei irgi buvo atsitikusi tokia nelaimė ir pasisako, kad ne, aš tavęs tikrai nepartrenkiau. Lyg maža būtų laimės, tariamoji auka miršta ir taip Grassadonia tampa ne tik įtariamuoju dėl sukeltos avarijos, bet ir visu įtariamuoju dėl žmogžudystės.

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Kaip žinau iš to, ką vėliau atrandu siužeto aprašyme, rinkdama trūkstamas detales, kurių niekaip nesugeba pateikti pats filmo herojus apie tai, kokį ir kaip sutiko nukentėjusįjį – Michele Grassadonia yra architektas ir propaguoja ekologišką gyvenimo būdą, dėl ko atsidūrė tokioje situacijoje, kad tyrėjams atrodo, jog jis yra šunsnukis, kuris bandė panaikinti įkalčius partrenkęs žmogų, o iš tiesų jis ten kažkaip labai ekologiškai pasielgė (šito nemačiau, nežinau, todėl neprisiemu atsakomybės atpasakoti).

Visgi kas man įstrigo, tai tai, koks ponas Grassadonia yra nesuprastas idealistas – dėl savo buvimo idėjos žmogumi, jis nesugeba kalbėti konkrečiai, paprastai ir aiškiai. Ir detaliai – tyrėjai bando iškvosti kiekvieną žodelytį, išsiaiškinti, kodėl jis policijai pranešdamas pasakė taip, o ne kitaip, jei iš tikrųjų yra niekuo dėtas. Grassadonia to paaiškinti nesugeba, dar blogiau – pradeda labai filosofiškai aiškinti kiekvieną savo veiksmą. Net savo sapnuose Grassadonia regi, kaip nuo paties parodymų glumsta tas storas dėdė, kurį patį pirmą pamačiau, įsijungusi filmą. Tarytum pats nujaučia, kad yra keistas arba tiksliau – žmonėms neperprantamas, kas yra labai nenaudinga atsidūrus tokioje nelaimėje.la-citta-ideale-luigi-lo-cascio-in-trasparenza-in-una-suggestiva-immagine-tratta-dal-film-268467

Grassadonia bando ieškoti teisybės, tačiau siaubingai nesiseka. Žmonėms apskritai bet koks jo elgesys atrodo labai keistas – dėl šito praranda ir advokatą, kurio juokeliai Grassadoniai pasirodo nepriimtini. Pagrindinio veikėjo duodami parodymai tarytum duoda teisėjams ir tyrėjams suprasti, kad jis arba yra visiškas asilas, arba totalus beprotis. Atrodo, kad visi yra dėl to keistumo labai sutrikę ir dėl šios priežasties net stokoja profesionalumo, kuriuo visiems nuolatos giriasi bet kuris su Grassadonia susidūręs advokatas.

Ieškodamas teisybės, Grassadonia galop griebiasi net savo nekenčiamo advokato, kuris kažkada advokatavo paties tėvui. Šio jis maldauja patikėti savo versija, kaip pats pasako: „Man tai labai svarbu. Kai niekas tavimi netiki, galima ir išprotėti.” Advokatas tada šmaikščiai praneša, kad su tokia problemėle nebent padėtų psichologas ar psichiatras, jo darbas – ne toks. Todėl vėl pasaulėžiūros išeities taško radikalūs skirtumai: Grassadonia mato žmogų, advokatas – klientą, kurio tėvui kažkada atstovavo.

Filmas baigiasi taip, kad aš maloniai susierzinu.

Prie ko čia Kamiu?

Gal dešimta minutė, kai žiūriu filmą ir suprantu, kad aš visai paaiškinčiau filmo idėją Albert Camus Svetimu, kur pagrindinis veikėjas, teisiamas ir nesuprantamas žmonių už tai, kad sugebėjo užmigti savo paties mamos laidotuvėse. Ir niekam niekaip nesuprasti, kad jis tebuvo pervargęs. Camus romano herojus galop išvis lieka nuteistas myriop ir pasmerkstas kaip absoliučiai amoralus žmogus.

70b32b18e93d2c5101a129b1f53c7c569c220a25Tik galbūt šio filmo idėja, atidžiau pagalvojus, yra išvirkštinė Albert Camus Svetimo versija: jei romane nesuprastas lieka žmogus, kuris tiesiog praktiškai pervargo ne su didžiausiom sėkmėm vykdamas per dykumas ir per siaubingą karštį, šįkart nesuprastasis lieka idealistas, kuris mąsto ir kalba sudėtingomis sąvokomis, neįsidėmi smulkių praktinių detalių bei serga kažkokiu aklu teisingumu. Vienas Grassadonios advokatų pastebi, kad jo keistumas tame, kad žmonėms baisiai ten taip jau ir rūpi tas teisingumas – svarbiau jiems visada būna pačių pergalė. Grassadoniai toks požiūris, aišku, nepriimtinas. Jis galiausiai, atrodo, vis pabando daryti kaip kiti, bet neišeina: todėl, kad žmonės pajaučia, kad Grassadonia dabar nesielgia kaip Grassadonia, kuris dar ir sutrinka nuo bandymo būti kaip kiti, todėl jie visi vienodai susiraukia ir galvoja, kad jis bando drumst smegenis, tik yra tiesiog neįtikėtinai nevykęs melagis, kas reikalą padaro dar neaiškesniu.

Man patiko tai, kaip filme Grassadonia pats nė neįtaria ir nė nesuprastum, jei kai kurie veikėjai nepraneštų, kiek jis jau kaip nusikaltėlis yra tapęs žinomas. Greičiausiai nejuntama todėl, kad pats Grassadonia to neįtaria. Jam tai nelabai rūpi. Atvirai tariant, net sunku pasakyti, kas Grassadoniai rūpi: tarytum tyliai smerkdamas kitus veikėjus, laikančius Teismą žaidimu, jis pats labiau priima savo teisumo įrodinėjimą kaip vieną didelį žaidimą. Kaip eksperimentą, kuris niekados neturės pasekmių. Grassadonia paprasčiausiai šokinėja ant lyno, kaip instruktorius sakė, kad negalima, nes galima pražūti, bet tarytum jis pats gilumėje žino, kad kai elgiesi labai labai pavojingai, tai tavęs blogas scenarijus nesučiups, nes pats nuo tavo neapdairumo ir naglumo bus suglumęs.  Grassadonia situacijoje žaidžia savo likimu taip įsijautęs, kad kiti nesugeba jo nuteisti ir prieš jį laimėti. Ir vėlgi – greičiausiai aš pasiduodu žmogiškai reakcijai į žmogų, kuriam tiesiog juodai nesiseka būti patikimam: galop imu ir subtiliai, nedrąsiai, tačiau pasmerkiu.

Paskutiniosiomis filmo minutėmis pagalvojau, kad gal visgi Grassadonia padarė tą nusikaltimą: tik negali tuo patikėti ir pats sau nepripažįsta. Tačiau spėju, kad toks pamąstymas atėjo nemačius pradžios.

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Šis filmas privertė pagalvoti apie kartus, kai koks žmogus, kartais net aš, lieka tarytum brudas, nors toks visai nebuvo. Kai žmonės pajunta tavo nepasitikėjimą savimi arba tavo silpnybes ir pradeda tuo manipuliuoti tyliai pasmerkdami už tai, kad ir tu turi silpnybių. Ir jie taip elgiasi, atrodo, visai pateisinamai: visi yra girdėję žodį „manipuliacija”, todėl tarytum regėdami to simptomus, įtaria ir tave tokį esant. Kita vertus, greičiausiai kaip Grassadonia jautėsi nesuprastas ir vis neteisingai kaltinamas, taip kiti veikėjai jautėsi vis nesugebantys prigauti nusikaltėlio, nes kol šis neprisipažino arba nėra pripažintas kaltu, tol teisybė nėra įvykusi. Grassadonios keistumas tarytum delsia teisingumą, kurį siekia įvykdyti likusieji veikėjai. Man tai labai įdomi psichologinė prieštara: žmogus, kuris nesugeba savęs deramai apginti ir žmonės, kurie mano matą faktus ir nuo savo paties melo paliegusį nusikaltėlį, tačiau tuo pat jie suglumsta ir nesugeba pagreitinti proceso dėl to, kad nusikaltėlis atrodo lyg… per lengvas kąsnelis..? O gal net tiesiog psichiškai nesveikas. Tik klausimas tada, kodėl nesikreipiama į psichiatrus ar psichologus? Visiška sumaištis galvose paties Grassadonios, likusių veikėjų ir mano, kaip žiūrovės.

La Città Ideale duočiau 9 už tai, kad man labai patiko, jog kaip reta turėjau daug erdvės ne kažko pasisemti iš kino/detektyvo/dramos, bet gavau netikėtai daug erdvės piešti savo mintis ir apmąstymus apie tai, ką matau ekrane. Ko pritrūko? Vis dėlto, tai vargu, ar yra filmas, kurį pažiūrėčiau dar kartą, net ir nemačius pradžios. Tai yra vienkartinis pasimėgavimas. Nors žinot, dabar taip rašau, ir galvoju… o gal dirstelsiu kada dar kartelį? Kas ten žino. Bet kokiu atveju – filmas paliko man didžiulį įspūdį. Rekomenduočiau tiems, kurie mėgsta stebėdami meno kūrinį patys veikti.

‘The Sopranos’: citatos, iš kurių išeis atpažinti save bei savo gyvenimą

  • “Nothing Christmas ham couldn’t fix.”
  • “Ho fucking ho”
  • “Shyness is a curse.”
  • “In the end, fuck Santa Claus.” –
  • “You bullshit me and you betray my daughter!”
  • “Family. Nothing is more important.”
  • “If I wanted to be treatred like shit, I’d get married.”
  • “Victory has many fathers but defeat is an orphan.”
  • “Who cares about shit they don’t have the balls to say to your face?”
  • “The one thing, the one thing, Ralph, that you cannot do, is blame yourself.”
  • “Just another Irina with a college degree.”
  • “The expiration date on your bullshit was last week.”
  • “It’s all i got, pal. Time.”
  • “If she keeps regressing, she’ll get back in the womb.”
  • “You are the dad. The template for all the future lovers.”
  • “Making her happy wouldn’t be the worst thing in the world of my career.”
  • “Blow off their self-esteem issues.”
  • “If they say spaghetti and meatballs, you tell them orecchiette with broccoli raab.”
  • “Mussolini was Hitler’s bitch”
  • “We’re the victims here.” “Oh you write a check, too?”
  • “God give me the strength” “She will.”
  • “This is a major PR boner.”
  • “So you finally read a book and it’s bullshit.”
  • “Somebody’s talking too much. And it’s costing me money.”
  • “So much love for her, such complete and pure emotion. I felt unworthy to even be in his presence. I was so moved by him.”
  • “You saw in this man the things that you want in your life. Truth. Love.”
  • “Speak the truth. But with the compassion and respect <…>. And say goodbye. For his sake and as well as yours”
  • “Senior year. There’s something about that light at the end of the light that can be very frightening.”
  • “God, listen to you. Believe it or not, the world does not revolve around you.”
  • “I’m so bored I feel like crying”
  • “Times like this, I remember when I lost Mikey. It’s impossible to think about food. But like the President says – we have to keep going. The family’s gotta eat.”
  • “The way they medicate kids these days is the answer for everything! And then they wonder why teenagers get hooked on drugs”
  • “And tell that midget not to be shy with that whip.” “If only his mother had taken that advice.”
  • “Each of us is alone in the fucking universe.”
  • “Jesus, Mary and Joseph.”
  • “I love you so much.” “So if you love me, stir my eggs, okay?”
  • “It’s a beautiful day in the neighbourhood. And I gotta rot in that courtroom.”
  • “The greatest cultural centre in the world, and you came here for sex?”
  • “They miss a payment, they start  acting like they’re doing you a favor if they give you anything. And then you gotta spend all your time hounding them. You gotta get your arms around this thing. Now.”
  • “You fucking French fucking lying cocksucker!”
  • “Can’t you come and talk to me? Hey, hey, I’m you friend! Suppose you hadn’t reached me and I come to your house and I find you dead. How am I supposed to feel?!”
  • “Please, I don’t blame you – I envy you.”
  • “Is that the kind of  person I am? A hawk? That’s an animal!”
  • “One suicide is bad enough, but two? They can both go and fuck themselves.”
  • “Sometimes there’s money in shit.”
  • “All right, all right. Take it easy. It’s in ancient history”
  • “The heart also wants what the dick wants.”
  • “Eat my dust, Donald Trump”
  • “It’s good that you’re sorry but no, it’s not all right”
    • “Vegas? Wanna get married by some Elvis impersonator?”
    • “How much is enough anyway?”
    • “No morals, but I got rules”
    • “Is everything or everybody really about their mothers?”
    • “I didn’t live 84 years to be nice to somebody I don’t like”
    • “I mean, there’s no way to know what it’s like until it happens to you.”
    • “First question. “What is today’s date?”” “A blonde with big tits and a hatful of Viagra.”
    • “Can’t I just be sad for a horse without some touchy-feely-Freudian-shit component to it?”
    • “It’s like some asshole is stalking the entire human race.”
    • “My wife prays to God. What kind of God does this shit?”
    • “Take it easy. Don’t do something you’re gonna regret.”
    • “I am like a visitor in my hometown. Life went on without me there.”
    • “I try to talk to her, but there is no communication, like with some people, you know what I mean?” “That’s what love is built on.” “Si.“
    • “So you’re not fucking him? So this isn’t really real.” “It is real. We communicate. He looks at me like I’m beautiful. He thinks I’m interesting when I talk. Just those few minutes when we see each other, I live for those. “I feel like my life is slipping through my fingers, that I will never be happy.” “If you haven’t slept with him yet, don’t.“
    • “For those of you who don’t know me, my name is Dominic and I am an alcoholic and an addict.” “Don’t forget – scumbag.”
    • “An intervention is a non-judgemental confrontation.”
    • “In 1997, I suffered a relapse. As in heroin addiction, alcoholics suffer a fairly high recidivism rate.” “Great. So he’s taking advice from a two time loser.”
    • “Well, I wish I knew your secret. Lose a leg and start making websites.” “That’s the whole purpose for people like me, to inspire people like you.“
    • “You got too much time to think of yourselves.”
    • “You should see yourself right now. In the shadows there, with the smoke all around you. You’re beautiful.”
    • “It’s a sin to waste good food.”
    • “That’s what I miss the most – talking to her.”

‘The Sopranos’: citatos, iš kurių išeis atpažinti save bei savo gyvenimą

  • “I don’t know, it’s different for women. It’s all about up here with them.”
  • “You’re at very important crossroads.  For once, you want to avod doing something you know is wrong and would be destructive, both to you yourself and to the people you care about. That’s growth. That’s progress.”
  • “I recall you used the words ‘drop-dead gorgeous’ about me and how you have to have me. And I said I wouldn’t date you, and look, you survived.”
  • “Frankly, you scored so far over your head when you got her, what do you expect?” “What the fuck are you talking about?” “She’s a knockout. A 10. And look at you – you’re average, at best. So you better reconcile yourself with that or you’re gonna be fucking paranoid for your whole life.“
  • “Where’s his fucking self-control, this guy?”
  • “Fuck me? Fuck you!”
  • “Even if it wasn’t true, that’s what people think.” <…> “Why do you care what people think? You know the truth.” “I gotta live in the world. <…>“
  • “Oh so you believe all that shit they’re saying? Am I that horrible? Really?”
  • “It’s never ending, your bullshit.”
  • “I know, everybody’s an idiot to you.”
  • “Wonderful, another crisis.”
  • “Does that mean you’ve thought about my dinner offer?” “I probably shouldn’t say this, but I have thought about nothing else since you called.”
  • “The funny thing is, I was sure he was gay. He sort of reminded me of you.”
  • “Why am I the only one held to any kind of standards?”
  • “I don’t do this a lot.” “Mm, do what?” “Sitting in a car, with a man, not really knowing what to do.”
  • “Mm, you with these books…” “Mm, education should never stop. It enriches all aspects of life.” “Hmm, I know.“
    • “I didn’t have my stuff with me so he puts his faggy hand on my shoulder and says “do your best.” “Well, that’s his job, to get you into college.” “Or maybe he’s just a big homo.”
    • “Jesus Christ, Tony, everybody’s a fag to you. You know, maybe you’re a fag. You ever think about that?”
    • “Yeah, believe it or not, I thought you fucking cared about me.”
    • “Whatever I say, whatever I do, because I was married to a man like Tony, my motives will always be called into question.”
    • “It’s hard doin’ business with strangers.”
    • “Can we get a dog?” “Please!” “I’ll walk him and I’ll pick up the poo and pee.” “Pee? Right. Start with your underwear.”
    • “At least she didn’t suffer. She made all of us suffer, instead.”
    • “I was in love with that woman. She was the reason I never married.”
    • “She never knew my feelings, what could I do. For years, I suffered in silence!”
    • “I’m also a TV writer, which by default, makes me a douche bag.”
    • “He got from this woman what he couldn’t get at home. Support. You know, love. A smile when you walk in the fucking door.”
    • „Not sexy exactly, but statuesque.”
    • “I’m such a good friend, how come I never see ya?”
    • “Relax, it’s an expression.” “Well, here’s another expression: you have five days to give me my money”
    • “Thought you were paying your phone bill.” “I should have, I know… but it’s been so long sinve I’ve been able to treat myself.”
    • “What is this fucking Pulp Fiction, am I supposed to be afraid?” “I don’t know, I didn’t see it.”
    • “But through it all, one thing remained constant: they had each other.”
    • “After all these years of marriage, you know what you find yourself thinking in your private moments? Please, God, let me die first. I don’t wanna miss him.”
    • “It’s a surprise party, Jun!” “What are we, children? Anyway, at our age it’s a surprise we’re still alive every morning”
    • “Tomorrow’s gonna be a mad house, just living hell.”
      • “Oh my goodness, what a bother. Excuse us for living!”
      • “An Italian allergic to pommodori? Dio mio! You have my sympathies!”
      • “Mer, my lovely bride. Still the prettiest girl in the world.” Thank you for putting up all of these years with me.”
      • “Nice to have money.”
      • “What time did you start drinkin’ today?” “Probably right after you got up.”
      • “He’ll be fine. He’s in love.”  “Oh please.” “You know what it’s like at that age. Can’t wait to see each other…  Can’t keep your hands off each other…“
      • “But historically, historical changes come out of war.”
      • “You’re a capable guy. Your mother let it slip one time: you got an IQ of 158.” “She told you that?” “It was the week you got tested. All the fucking nuns were raving about it.” “Lot of good it did for me.”
      • “Tell him I got fax machines coming out of my ass.”
      • “Well, first of all, we’re Italian – we don’t believe in divorce.”
      • “I want what I am entitled to.” “You’re entitled to shit.”
      • “Talk to married people. That ring, believe it or not, it’s got this kind of, like, weird power.”
      • You have options. I have a lawyer.”
      • Great to see you not exerting yourself in this heath.”
      • “When New Jersey tomatoes are in season, you can’t keep these New York guys away.” “Fuck the tomatoes, I’ll take the scarole.“
      • “First he gave her the emeralds, then he gave her the pearls.”
      • “I wish you had told me.” “Yeah, I wish you’d cured it.”
      • “I worry about him.” “He’s a grown man isn’t he?”
      • “Turns out I’m just a fucking robot to my own pussy-ass weakness.”
      • “It doesn’t make you mad, you make you mad.”
      • “What are your physical feelings right now?” “I’d like to punch you in the face.”
      • “Depression is rage turned inward.”
      • “That’s the whole, beautiful point. You know what they say: “Revenge is like serving cold cuts.” “Yeah, I think it’s “Revenge is a dish best served cold.”

‘The Sopranos’: citatos, iš kurių išeis atpažinti save bei savo gyvenimą

  • “Being at the top, he’s isolated by himself” “Yeah, it’s just him and his money.“
  • “You look good!” “Feel good.”
  • “Asshole, he was gonna call. Did he?” “Jerk.”
  • “You know, you’re getting a divorce, and I see you less than before.” [meilužė]
  • “Why the fuck does this shit always happen to me?”
  • “I’m not available right now. Don’t leave messages on this phone.”
  • “The object is to learn what you saw in me, not what I saw in you.”
  • “I’ve had a great deal of success with it treating this type of condition. I do need to warn you, however, there are certain side effects. Mind you, these are temporary. But there’s a good chance of weight gain, accompanied by Cushing’s syndrome – that’s a swelling of the facial features, sort of a moon face.” “What?” “You’ve seen Jerry Lewis in the last year or two.” “Oh my God!” “She’s planning a wedding, for Christ’s sake!”
  • “Well, like Papaye says: I am what I am!” “Well, I didn’t marry a cartoon.”
  • “People got their health, they take it for granted.”
  • “Take your fucking sorry’s and stick them in your ass.”
  • “Fuck family, fuck loyalty. You cost him a dime, you’re a fucking pariah!”
  • “This is how you leave me? When I’m almost burned to death cooking you a fucking snack?”
  • “I’m going back to my wife.” “You selfish fuck.”
  • “I wanna make a toast. To the people I love. Nothing else matters.”
  • “Whoa, slow down, slow down! Supposed to savor it. It’s important in life.”
  • “I mean,  living like this is what’s costing you your insides!” “I really need a cigarette.”
  • “Some people are better at being number two’s.”
  • “We couldn’t ever come back, Adriana.” “I don’t wanna come back. I want you.”
  • “You want some eggs?” “I need to clear my head.”
  • “Don’t smoke, next you’re gonna want vodka.”
  • “Poverty is a great motivator.”
  • “What can we say about this guy? The ancient Romans had a word. Asshole.”
  • “My grandfather said some of my ancestors were winemakers. But what the fuck do I know, huh?”
  • “But we are a family. And even in this fucked up day and age it means something.”
  • “This kid. That’s his trouble. He keeps it all bottled up! Then they wonder why they get chemical dependencies.”
  • “You never know about people.”
  • “Don’t get into fucking preamble. Just tell me what’s on your mind.”
  • “You got some unhappy people out there.” “No shit.”
  • “But we all got flaws. Even you. Seven deadly sins and yours is pride”
  • “All due respect. You got no fucking idea what it’s like to be number one.”
  • “And I do know this because I raised you from day one – you won’t like working at McDonald’s.”
  • “I’m worried, Ade.” “Everybody’s worried.” “No, I am worried all the time”
  • “What’s past is past. Leave it alone. Things are going good now.”
  • “It’s bureaucratic bullshit! In my day, they’t turn a blind eye!”
  • “No good deed goes unpunished!”
  • “Lemme tell you, A. J. No matter how close you are, your friends are gonna let you down. Family. They’re the only ones you can depend on.”
  • “If you’re lucky, in the end you can let go of your pride, let your loved ones care for you.” “I’d rather they hold a pillow over my face.“
  • “It’s less hurtful to believe that they were right to try and destroy you than to accept the fact she didn’t value you.”
  • “Here he is. “Ho, finally! I started growing mushrooms out my ass!”
  • “You want something done, you gotta do it yourself!”
  • “He’s the boss, Dyanne.” “The boss of what? He’s a piece of shit!”
  • “Does he know that he’s dying?” “We don’t know.”
  • “I don’t think that you come here cause of the sandwiches I think you come here ‘cause you miss us.” [FBI agentui mafijos narys]
  • “Remember the time when Artie and Charmaine broke up for the first time? The first time of many?”
  • “Kids this age get blown up in Iraq”
  • “I can’t believe we won’t get to do stuff that we did again… because we will. I’m positive.”
  • “I funked out of school. <…>” “With your father in a coma?”
  • “Yes, tell us. Who’s the fraud without a fairy tale.”
  • “I never saw myself as that kind of guy. I’m more behind the scenes. Wise, strategy.”
  • “The times make the man, not the other way around.”
  • “Woah, ladies’ room next door.” “Like you reach it from here.”
  • “As writers we are all hung up. But also on our own hang up. We mythologize our narrative.”
  • “An entire room. Full of writers! And you did nothing!”
  • “They totally misquoted me!” “Of course they did! That’s what they do! Which is why I and everybody told you: don’t talk to the press!”
  • “And I don’t know if I loved him in spite of it, or because of it.”
  • “He can’t talk because he got the tube in his throat. Maybe we should consider lucky ourselves.”
  • “That’s gotta feel good. The simple things.”
  • “What if somebody decides viagra is wrong? I don’t like it.” “Well. God loves procreation. No one’s saying anything against viagra. Birth control or name of the morning after pills is a sin, because it extracts at life unborn.” “Yeah, but what if somebody goes after viagra. And I’m not talking about procreation. <…>” “Something like viagra will never be an issue.”

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  • “You wanna kick me out of here?” “Well hospital stay cause a lot of money.” “My bowels don’t work. I’m in pain. I just got up with it for chrissake.” “Well, uh, perhaps your bowels would be working better if you hadn’t tried to eat the sausage sandwich on 3.28”
  • “Tony Soprano?” “Yeah.” “Original G. “Yeah, whatever. “
  • “Salvation isn’t just about being saved from hell after you die, it’s also about being saved from yourself while you’re still alive.”
  • “What, he’s saying the dinosaurs were back with Adam and Eve?” “I don’t know, I guess” “No way! With T-Rex in the garden, Adam and Eve would be running all the time scared shitless. But the Bible says it was paradise.”
  • “From now on, everyday is a gift.”
  • “Jesus, can we talk in this family about anything besides food?!”
  • “Should be a beautiful bride, Tony.” “All brides are beautiful.”
  • “I, Eric, take you Allegra <…>” “Allegra? Ain’t that a co-medicine?” “Means happiness in Italian.” “Fucks that got to do with co-medicine?”
  • “He’s a cancer. I can’t let it spread.”
  • “Even Cinderella didn’t cry!” ‘See, when it comes to our daughters, all bets are off.”
  • “You make your own luck in life.”
  • “People see only what you allow them to see.”
  • “Carmela, wait!” “Let her go! I had a lifetime of her bullshit!”
  • “Usual guys?” “Yeah, we’re boring.”
  • “I’m telling – my business – I’ve met a lot of women. That one – ain’t getting laid.”
  • “I don’t give too much of a shit what people do behind closed doors, with the consenting adults. But don’t forget – I’m a straight Catholic!”
  • “<…> some of inside me says: God bless, I salut, who gives a shit. But I had a second chance, why shouldn’t he?”
  • “You’ve been fucking talking about every day being a gift and stopping and smelling roses. But regular life’s kinda picking at it all the way out! Your house, the shit you own – it drives you out! Your kids, what they want! One bad idea after another!”
  • “Accentuate the positive, I want you to get better”
  • “I’m not gonna bring the sources… anyway, it’s all over the place”
  • “My cousin he married! And making the mockery out of the all sacrament!”
  • “You know certain people love the drama. Like fucking high school girls!”
  • “Regarded recent humiliations, it’s an honor to be joined by MEN.” – ep 7
  • “No blood!” “No blood” [tostas]
  • “I can’t believe this, you agreed on this in the hospital!” “Christopher, I was in a coma.”
  • “I could watch her walk away all night.” “Good, ‘cause like most girls with you, that’s what she’s gonna do.”
  • “But with business sometimes shit happens, the plain field changes, whatever, you gotta do whatever you gotta do to keep your income.” – ep 7
  • “It’s nice having this again.” “Well it’s supposed to be better than ‘nice’”
  • “I do what you guys want, do I deserve some kind of life?”
  • “Rebellious?“ „Just a little tolerance for boredom.”
  • “Must be lonely sometimes, being a writer.” “You get used to it.”
  • “There are different times. Young people today are bombarded with so much information, so much input of every kind. Consequently, true adulthood is delayed.”
  • “I guess your heart was in a right place, AJ. But it’s wrong.”
  • “It’s a movie. You gotta grow up. You’re not a kid anymore.”
  • “You were young. Stubborn.”
  • “Come on, Liz, you’re drunk.” “Drunk? It’s called – depression. I haven’t drunk in years.”
  • “My kid – it’ll be different. It’ll be proud of his house.”
  • “Oh, scumbag. I should’ve kicked his ass!” “Yeah, but what did you do? Nothing!”
  • “As I always say… man is not complete until he’s married.” – ep 9
  • “But we both know – no matter how much help I gave, you’d still be here fucking complaining.”
  • “God, he’s such a mope!”
  • “This Prince Albert? Still sleeping?”
  • “It makes Bob seem weak? Your sister, too? These are acts of kindness.”
  • „Fucking Janice attracts trauma, she queens the misery.”
  • “Can I go home to a peaceful house for one goddamn night?”
  • “He was fucking stalking you!” “That’s the thing with the gays.”
  • “Look at those clouds! Paris skies!”
  • “Father put it so well last week. There’s nothing gay about hell, he said.”
  • “Well you aren’t gonna go out with him, are you? He’s, like, 26 years old.” “Duh!”
  • “We worry so much, sometimes it feels like it’s all we do. But in the end it’s just washed away. All of it, it’s just… gets washed away!”
  • “Father always says: hate the sinner, love the sinner.”
  • “What you resent Carmela doing for AJ, protecting him from his father, is the very thing you had often wished your mother would have done for you.”
  • “You know what’s strange, Ro? When you go to a place you’ve never been before it’s, like, all the people were imaginary till you got there. Like, until you saw them, they never really existed and you didn’t exist to them.” “I don’t know, maybe… maybe you’re more philosophical person than I am…” “Nah, it just made me think, that’s all. That’s just as same as when you die. Life goes on without you. Like it does in Paris when we’re not here.”
  • “He’s dead, he’s gone… What can I do about it? Light a candle.”
  • “Your friend? Someone needs to tell her she’s dead.”
  • “What are we doing now?” “I don’t know. Can’t stop thinking about fucking you one more time.”
  • “You’re right. Guy’s got a lot more in his mind than this: like, whether or not have that third sandwich!”
  • “Nice piece that necklace, where’d you get it?” “The mall?” “Should’ve told me. I got a guy…” “And I gotta job.”
  • “I can tell you, Phill. You look fantastic!” “Is it science fiction?”
  • “Lemme tell you something. I’m a cranky fuck lately…” “Lately?!”

‘The Sopranos’: citatos, iš kurių išeis atpažinti save bei savo gyvenimą

  • “Thank god, I really didn’t wanna hang in over your birthday” “Look, can we forget already that it’s my birthday?” “You say that and then you get upset no one makes a fuss!”
  • “Speaking of kids and ma… Sandy said something interesting. That when we were babies, everything was fine, then ma couldn’t stand it as her babies got older and they got separated from her,  and when they started to talk and express ideas – that’s when the trouble started.”
  • “Listen to us! Morbid fucks…”
  • “You know what, Tony? Fuck the fuck out!” “Oh, in front of the baby?!”
  • “Oh… how was her name, Tony?” “Your ass.”
  • “That verbal diarrhea, you got something in that head of yours, Janice…”
  • “You two have a fight?” “I don’t know!”
  • “All in all. We’re lucky fucks. I tell myself that everyday.”
  • “Psychologically, one of persons told that dying is the ultimate loss of control.” <…> I do know he is a leader. I suspect smoking on some level is an attempt to die as he lived. In total control.”
  • “My weakness. Sometimes I think it’s in my DNA.”
  • “I know, but… this is what life’s still like? At our age?!”
  • “You seem good, Junior, I gotta say.” “Fuck does that mean, I’m fuckin’ incarcerated, for Christ’s sake.”
  • “Sick fucking world.”
  • “Oh, Madonn. He pisses in bed now? Jesus Christ fucking kill me now!”
  • “Corrado, how are you doing today?” “I’m dying slow death, that’s how I am doing.”
  • “That never works. She should just get him a dog.”[apie neklusnaus sūnaus siuntimą į karo mokyklą]
  • “Tony, you always have your business on your mind. Take a night. Smell the cognac!”
  • “You gotta act like it hurt a little more, you know. For your guys.”
  • “Your family’ had enough shame. You should set things right.”
  • “You see, how these Italians work. For the most part okay. Get them cornered – you’re dealing with nothing more than an animal.”
  • “Tragedy. Like a pebble in a lake. Even the fish feel it.”
  • “I love you.” I love you, too, Anthony. But I don’t know… maybe I don’t.”
  • “So your solutions is risk more and make things even worse?”
  • “You eat and you play, like there’s not a giant piano hanging by a rope just over the top of your head every minute of every day.”
  • “I know this is hard for you to believe, but food may not be the answer for every problem.” “Neither is acting like a little whiny bitch.“
  • “When I was using I was a disgrace, when I am sober I’m a drip. The fuck you want from me?”
  • “She was my life!” “You’re 20 years old, you barely have a life!”
  • “What you’re going through, what you’re feeling it right now… it happens sometimes. Everybody gets the blues… There’s a half-a-billion industry devoted to it!” “What, prozac?” “No, the music business. They write thousands of songs about this shit.”
  • “Listen, these fucking women… they’ll drive you nuts with your emotions and whatnots…”
  • “Majoring in cash, minoring in ass!”
  • “Obviously, I’m prone to depression. A certain black attitude about the world, but I know I can handle it. Your kids, though… It’s like when they’re little, and they get sick, you’d give anything in the world to trade places with them so they don’t have to suffer. And then to think you’re the cause of it.” “How are you the cause of it?” “It’s in his blood, this miserable fucking existence. My rotten fucking putrid genes have infected kid’s soul. That’s my gift to my son.”
  • “Pours you drink with one hand, judges you with the other if you take it.”
  • “I can’t go in particulars, but… wise girlfriends – they can complicate life in a major way.”
  • “How are you handling all this?” “Worst part? Truthfully? Is that I gotta sit there with people who ARE hurt. Bad. And I gotta have the long face in the silent in the platitude… but I don’t feel it. And that makes me feel like a hypocrite. And that makes me melt it down.”
  • “How are you hanging in, Paulolucc’?” “As well as it can be expected.”
  • “She doesn’t know… Isn’t God wonderful that way.”
  • “You sound depressed again.” “I mean, how can anybody not be? You have to be fucking nuts not to be! You have to have your head so far of your ass that you couldn’t see your own stupid face!” “What are you specifically talking about?” “Everything’s so fucked up…“
  • “For 20 years, he won’t crack a book, all of a sudden he’s the world’s foremost authority!”
  • “You don’t look so good.” “Ugh… this job!”
  • “We’d like to show you some pictures.” “Angelina Jolie I hope”
  • “The grieving process – it takes time. The closer you are to somebody.”
  • “A point where business bleeds into other shit, feelings make things financially unfeasible.”
  • “Do you have a problem?” “Not yet. Would you like one?”
  • „Essentially, it concludes that talk-therapy while not only being useless with sociopaths, actually serves to validate them. Yochelson says they sharpen their skills as conmen on their therapists.”
  • “It’s always what you think, isn’t it? It’s never how I feel!”
  • “This is gonna sound stupid. But I saw at one point that our mothers are… they’re bus drivers. They’re – no, they are the bus. See, they’re the vehicle that gets us here. They drop us off and go on their way. They continue on their journey. And the problem is that we keep trying to get back on the bus, instead of just letting it go.”
  • “Uncle Philly!” “Uncly Philly my ass.”
  • “What is this fascination with criminals?” “Rescue fantasy. They think they can fix them.”
  • “So the boy who never cared now cares about too much? And the daughter now like all females ultimately disappoints?” –
  • “What do you want from me? I am depressed.” “You wanna hear depressed? $36,000 for that car!”
  • “You’re not getting another one!” “Actually, that’s good. It’ll force me to take the bus.” “What?!” “We have to break our dependence on foreign oil.” – ep 21
  • “These are snakes with fur. The old Italians will tell you – you can’t even put them around a baby!” [apie katiną]
  •  “This fucking animal is history. Pick him up!”
  • “Maybe the army’d be great for him if there wasn’t a war going on.”
  • “Sometimes you tell a lie so long, you don’t know when to stop. You don’t know when it’s safe.”
  • “I miss you.” “I don’t wanna know you. I don’t wanna hear your voice. Don’t call me again.”
  • “You think my life’s a fucking picnic?”